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Later this month my poems are to be published in a book called “A Power Within†It is pleasing to see more than fifty of these poems of love, all together in this beautiful book with it’s rich coloured cover-not I might add, the beautiful photo I leave here for your delight today-and 105 pages, which would look beautiful adorning any coffee table. I am thrilled with the result of the proof and with the superb layout done by Matt Rutherford of www.mattrutherford.com thank you Matt. More news on the release date will be here later this month.
~Sunset Photo courtesy of Colin Brown – All Rights Reserved~
Silver shimmering crest of light
that shines and glistens on special nights
but only seen by those who love,
for those who notice this moon above
fluorescing glow of softest light
that shines on waves in rolling flight,
this secret candescent light that holds
a special place in lover’s souls,
when the flotsam of life is tearing at you
lift your head and see this view.
When life’s foreboding ways do seek
to sometime knock you off your feet
take your dreams and shake them loose
never stumble for you will see
this shining luminosity of moonlight free,
for on these magic nights of love
that glow for lovers from above
especially for those entwined souls
for secrets between them never told
tilt your head to gaze above
to see this gemlike moon of love…
This poem is dedicated to Sally and Maurice. October 2009
Copyright @ Susie Hemingway 2009
Photo courtesy of Sally Leeves
As friendships and knowledge builds with other Myeloma sufferers, it is easy to understand that this Cancer unfolds so differently for each patient. With a huge variation in symptoms, it appears such a diverse disease that seems to stumble on the weakest organs making it’s own unique way of attack. For some MM sufferers the damage unfolds with lower back trouble or in long limb fractures or breaks. I know that a neck fracture was the first sign for a friend that something terrible was wrong and then much later a diagnosis of MM was made. How differently this disease shows it’s signs in each patient.
For Hamada it was kidney failure that came out of the blue with no signal at all that anything was amiss, just an unusual feeling of tiredness. For sure it is so important to get an early diagnosis before the myeloma does serious damage to vital organs but how many of us get regular blood CBC’s? very few I would imagine in the UK. Unless like Hamada who did contract work at times and needed good health checks for insurance travelling abroad etc. In many cases this disease could and does go unnoticed for many months, so the damage is already done. Although Hamada succumbed to MM he was in one way, very lucky to have had an early diagnosis as we believe that having had a blood test only six months before the very one that picked-up his kidney failure, certainly played a great part in getting him to this now, three years six months point. Early diagnosis I believe, is paramount and vital, we all know that the damage done by Myeloma cannot be reversed but it can be brought under control. Still with good care it is important to stress, many patients are now living long and productive lives.
Hamada was immediately prescribed a vast array of maintenance drugs from day one. Including some to protect as much as possible, his bones and the lining of his stomach and gut etc. It is so important to keep regularly to the times of taking these drugs and injections, not missing out or delaying in the filling of prescription etc. Good continuous management of drug awareness, taking as much care with infections, avoiding places and people with colds or worse still flu.
Diet is vital to the success of a longer life. Good tasty meals that contain a good variety, covering all vitamins and minerals and for some little and often is the rule. In the case of Kidney damage, eliminating salt and potassium and increasing liquid intake to a reasonable two litre per day amount, has helped Hamada greatly. I know that there are many MM sufferers who still enjoy a glass of wine, and why not? But if the kidneys are affected not really a wise move, the rule always being, water is best. Hamada now has 15% kidney function when at diagnosis he had only 6%. A great improvement that has kept him from dialysis.
The very difficult part is that Hamada’s Para Protein-an important marker and indicator in the activity of the cancer- is rising once again, and the decision will have to be made shortly, with regards to the next chemotherapy regime for him, possibly Velcade. Whether he is really strong enough to try again with more chemotherapy and if this is the right drug of choice at a time, when he is enjoying a quiet but steady pace of life, is a most difficult decision to arrive at. The damage from this drug would certainly be detrimental to parts of his poor quality blood, which although not getting much worse, is not improving either but could bring down the para-protein and such, help to eliminate further damage to his bones and organs.
We think the New Year 2010 will bring the answers to these decisions, Hamada has achieved so much and done so well we feel, for someone given a prognosis of only six months at outset . He continues bravely and without complaint about anything, a great lesson to us all I feel. So steadfastly we make the most of each and every day with love and the best possible care we can manage. We sincerely wish all our friends in the world of Myeloma (sadly there are many) peace and hope, a decent quality of life and the very best care possible from your providers but most of all, love and kindness from your carers .
I carry thee like the heavy rain drenched leaves cover the precious plants
I carry thee like the mother with soft-fleshed babe in arms
I carry thee on heavy days, when limbs are tired but heart is willing
I carry thee.
I think for you on difficult days when drug filled mind is fuddled and quiet
I think ahead for you with heavy heart filled with anxious thoughts of decisions that must be made
I think of you when struggles to move are hard and bones make creaks and eyes are dulled
I think of you.
I watch for you, I listen to your breathing, when night has fallen and stillness comes
I watch for you with hope you never stumble or fall
I watch for you to make that kiss you love, entirely right at night
I watch for you.
I dream for you that days will pass pain free and be filled with God’s blessings
I dream for you when watching Autumn leaves fall as trees again show their tangled limbs.
I dream for you that you will see the Summer sun, rise across the pastures green once more
I carry thee….
@ Copyright 2009
I have taken my beautiful “Borgo degli Ulivil†sparkling grey dancing shoes, from their satin lined box, my soft grey “YSL“ velvet evening purse from it’s silken drawstring pouch. I have fixed my long tresses, in a more elaborate style. Drenched myself in Coco Chanel and slipped into my twinkling jet encrusted long “Dior†gown. I have brought all my diamonds from the safe for this is indeed, a special occasion!
So here I am, the journey was uneventful, my elderly Rolls purred along the English countryside to our dear little airfield. The flight across the pond was smooth, fast and over in what seemed like a mere moment or two, my pilot for the evening trip is my dear friend Richard Branson.
I am at the “Willow Manor Ball†waiting now for charming Al Pacino to lead me to the dance floor for the first tango, and then whoever is able to dance with style and passion would be most welcome. Perhaps that charming Skip Simpson, I think he is taken with that pretty Cameron something or other. Or could it be my old friend Omar, he is a tad tired these days but still likes to dance and such a one for the scintillating conversation that I love, when of course he can bear to leave the poker table. We have had some wonderful games of backgammon over the years in his charming apartment overlooking the Nile near Cairo
How wonderful that I am attending the Cyber ball at “Willow Manor†Such fun we are all having, with wonderful Beluga Caviar on the daintiest of Blinis with just a glass or two of Vintage, Dom Perignon bubbles.
The orchestra is playing all the old dance numbers from many shows I can recall, my feet are yearning to dance, could that be Mr Astaire over there? I am thrilled my dance card is full to the brim! How simply wonderful the hostess looks and all these terribly handsome men over there, surrounding Marilyn Monroe. What a party this is turning out to be, here at “Willow Manorâ€
The Manor I must say looks amazing, with much crystal reflecting their acting prisms of lights on the most beautiful rich brown mahogany floors. The flunkies are everywhere with trays of the most delicious canapés. The smell of the huge vases of Lilies and Red Roses are overpowering – so reminding me of my poem “Lilies†– and that truly wonderful place years ago… but I digress, no more of that.
I am here to enjoy this evening to the full and I have noticed some admiring glances from several of the more mature men! I think I recognizes dear Paul Newman and is that not the charming young cove Johnny Depp? and can I see our dear old Richard Burton chatting away to Dame Helen Mirren, yes I’m right, just behind that marble pillar next to Eric Clapton and his friend, the handsome dark haired man from Santana. I believe they are playing later tonight. I shall look forward to that.
What a splendid array of guests, pulling dreams and memories from my mind, how charming they all are. We might have a salsa or two later, there are some very swarthy slim young men here. I heard a very beautiful redhead mention that the wicked Lord Byron is also at Willow Manor tonight! I will work my way around the room later and enquire after his health.
I can see John Lennon in deep conversation with dear Luther, ahh now will he be singing I wonder? then my evening will be complete. Umm, those lush deep tones of blues and soul, I can hear a sax playing in the ball room “ Heaven I’m in heaven†da da da la la la la… de da da dee…†when I’m out together dancing cheek to cheek.â€
We shall be going into dinner soon, I am almost overwhelmed, as our superb hostess has informed me, I am to be sitting between dear Tony Bennett and Robert Redford and opposite the young and very handsome Elvis Presley, whom I understand is to be singing later. Oh what fun we are all having !!!.
The evening is young, alas I am not, but still…it is a delight, full of dreams for everyone who attended the enchanting “Manor Ball†A flight of the imagination perhaps…..?
This beautiful grey rose in velvet box has just been presented to me from an admirer
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Thank you J. Johnson how kind you are and
thank you to the charming and beautiful hostess Willow, at YES! the “ Ball Of The Year†see:
http://www.willowmanor.blogspot.com
Update from Willow Manor 14.10.2009
“Some of the highlights of the evening, besides all the exciting celebs,was the strange Drambuie brew that TFE brought along, completely rendering us insane with one little sip, the SnL One jet ride from Skip and the Silver Fox, a fabulous dune buggy show on the front lawn from Thomas Crown, and Reya reading from her crystal ball in the manor library.
This fun event would have been nothing without all the wonderful imaginations and efforts of all of you dear, dear bloggy friends. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. It truly was an enchanted eveningâ€
Do you remember long ago
you found that magic place,
where lilies filled most every room
and beds were dressed in lace
the men in polished uniforms
took bags and opened doors,
and the crystal of the chandelier’s
twinkled straight on marble floors.
The majesty and splendour of
this, your special place,
was clear as sparkling water
that ran from fountain space.
You sat me by the sea-view
in a chair of plushest silk
the lady with the clear sweet voice
the harp, it’s gentle lilt,
you said my hair was "pretty"
and my dress was "just divine"
and then they brought us pink delights
and goblets full of wine.
The scent from all the lilies
that filled most every room,
could that be what was turning
my heart, amid the blooms,
perhaps it was the dark red wine
perhaps it was your face,
perhaps those gilded bronzes,
I remembered in that place
We walked on Turkish carpets
in rooms of ormolu,
along the ‘china’ terrace
admiring stunning views,
we walked along the waters edge
leaving sandals on the stairs,
still that beguiling smell of lilies,
I wondered where, from here
and as you turned and smiled
coming, face to face……
where lilies filled most every room,
and beds were dressed in lace.
@ Copyright 2006
On the 8th of October it will be two years since Hamada’s Stem Cell Transplant and we once again thank Prof. N. Russell and his wonderful team at Nottingham’s "Centre of Clinical Haematology" for their expertise and for securing these past two years for Hamada. We continue with joy at each given day and try to make everyday as special as we possibly can.
In celebration I post here Hamada’s favourite Poem, apart from mine! ( I’m jesting of course)
~
From the Springtime of Love by Khalil Gibran.
Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving:
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love’s ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.
Khalil Gibran 1883 – 1931
Brilliant Sunset sinking fast
of pumpkin corals and scarlet reds,
slowly first, as watchful eyes
dream and melt in paradise.
We turn to stare at coloured sky
and watch graceful bird swooping by,
we listen to the palm trees sway
as sun kissed bodies feel close of day,
evening warmth on cooling skin
pleasures seem to merge within.
Sinking slowly, small cirrus streaks
enhance this beauty we love to seek.
Vermilion ambers, Magenta hues
spectacular colours for me and you,
gentle sounds of ebbing waves
this rhythm and flow of life and days…
Why we seek this twilight sky?
this energy that makes us sigh,
that makes our shoulders rest this way
that always takes our stress away.
This colour of power, this colour of
might, this reason to live, this reason
to fight,
this Sunset watched with only you
delicious memories come into view.
With many thanks to Sandy Banks *
http://www.retiredforgood.blogspot.com for allowing me to use these very beautiful photos and for dedicating the top rather special Sunset Photo to us both.*
Sandy said… Your poem prompted me to gift those precious moments as the sun slips down behind the mountain and sea – caught, but not stopped – to you and your beloved… I love your words that bring the essence of a season or a moment into very sharp focus. Thank you again….
All Rights Reserved@ October 2009
She came rushing in, or though it seemed to me,
disbelief that this colourful Lady with her cloak of reds and golds had
already arrived, when I glanced from my window.
I must have been looking the other way!
but then we don’t count the days pursuing more important matters now.
As the relentless stricken battle appears once more
on the horizon, had she come to distract my mind or bring colours to my heart?
This feckless stunning Lady who sheds her clothes
and scatters them where she will, like drops of tears in
a template of sadness perhaps?
A powerful change of authority as restless and now incipient to decay.
Old roses fade and fall like shattered fragments of glass from a precious mirror,
the hedgerows become bare, no more luscious berries
but still holding onto their thin strips of life.
Leaves, could they ever be more beautiful?
turning to deep maroons and burnished, glinting, jewelled colours.
Conkers appearing from their secret shells to fall in copper splendour
from the impressive stately Horse Chestnut trees.
We arrived, like we had just opened our eyes.
Another Autumn! who would have believed we would
see this majestic Lady together, dumbstruck once more at her beauty
but belligerently waging war on staying in our perfect peaceful Summer,
not for us, the rushing of time.
@Copyright Susie Hemingway 2009
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I missed you, when the heated rhythm of Salsa
– that feels so like chillies when they touch
your tongue – drifted across the dance floor.
I missed you as this enticing music reached
my jewelled pinned ears.
Where were you? when the luscious sounds of
Sax blues, caught my needy toes
so carefully encased in high dancing shoes.
Where were those slim ‘sun touched’ hands that would
reach to twirl me to the dance floor.
Where was the graceful dancer, whose gentle persuasion
could spin me like a whirlpool, making me turn
and sway to the sounds of Latin beats and Bluesy tones.
Tell me, where were those magical eyes,
those sparkling rays of light, that always laughed with me.
Where was that smile, those breathy movements on the dance floor, those feet that could glide and coax
the dancer from my soul…
How my heart wants to dance with you once more,
instead of standing alone when the music calls to me.
I watched the others spin and whirl but my arms were empty,
sadness for your charms that made me feel like sixteen again.
I was never a wallflower but she has found me now,
where were you… when the deliciously heated sound of Salsa reached my ears… where were you?
@ Copyright 2009 Susie Hemingway.
Photo Susie and Hamada –Alex 1986. Wallflower Photo courtesy of Janey Johnson Photos. 2009
*This Poem was Posted On The Day Patrick Swazey Died Of Pancreatic Cancer. He Was A Wonderful Dancer bringing much pleasure to many ladies who saw him in the enchanting film “Dirty Dancing†So I dedicate this poem to Patrick and to all lovers of dancing . “May Patrick continue to dance in Heavenâ€
It was a comforting day you said
skies of blue, white vapoury
scudding clouds lifting the
shimmering colourful kites
to the heavens in breezy skitsy way,
I followed your eyes
I tried to see your soul,
in quiet reverie as no one knows
the heart that pushes down this pain
in a day affirmative that popped
like champagne.
Laughter surrounds you
consuming and capturing this
mere moment but for you a life
so difficult and as fragile
as the bubbles in my glass,
breathe my love, live in mind forever
this sun warmed golden day
of perpetual joy,
paint these brushstrokes
on your heart, for life is now,
this time is ours
as precious and as beautiful
as the stunning mosaic sky.
My cares fluttered like the
swooping of the Kites
free and belonging to the skies,
intrinsic as the white opal swirls of the clouds
tossing my sadness into the wind
so carrying us forward with courage
to yet another day
refreshed and replenished
you glanced at me,
in soft light fading…it was a comforting day.
Copyright@ 2009.
Photo courtesy of Matt Rutherford.
This poem is dedicated to Dianne and Vern West, Nevada, Arkansas USA
for their courage.
Found this quote on a great blog – I like it a lot.
Ink runs from the corners of my mouth.
There is no happiness like mine.
I have been eating poetry.â€
Mark Strand.
We decided as we had a full house at “Hemingway†for the Bank Holiday Weekend to visit a lovely beach close to our home here in the East Midlands. The weather was fair with plenty of warm sun and a brisk breeze that helped the colourful Kites reach their blustery heights. There were ten of us in all, so plenty of willing hands to push Hamada’s chair along the old fashioned promenade to reach our base for the day at one of the brightly coloured chalets perched high with their watchful eyes, newly painted wood and so many memories of families gone before. They made a stunning border along the seafront.
Hamada was thrilled with being by the sea again, such a favourite place and reminding him immediately of his childhood growing up close to the Sea in Alexandria, Egypt, where as children they also had a beach hut. A smile seldom left his face all day. He watch intently at all about him, enjoying his family and the fun and laughter we all had. Savouring the good fish and chip lunch, nothing quite so enjoyable as eating this English delight, washed down with a nice glass of Bollinger’s. Much flying of kites , Matt, Jo and Stuart steering their garish coloured Kites high for us to see clearly at our good advantage point and our little Grandson even braving the cold North Sea!
A loving family like many others, tucking into ice-cream, happy to be together and enjoying the banter and fun of a typical English Summer Day. Just as Hamada said “ A very comforting Dayâ€
10561 view @ September 1 2009.
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Calm are the seas we travel now,
the sail is down
how tranquil is the ocean,
we drift past the deserted islands
with their scattered palms and
fallen coconuts,
we lay on the deck, with bronzed
skin and salty mouths
calm are our seas,
the soft magnolia smell of warm breezes
whispers through our hair
all is blue, placid and serene,
I am here with you, for once
essential as the mainstay
Calm are our Seas…
Photo: Personal Oil Painting – somewhere special in Oman.
* N.B. See Comments for Dedication.
@ Copyright Susie Hemingway 2009